I know I am in a quagmire.
Cannot focus can barely move, tears are constantly at the edge of my eyes.
Winter is not kind to the lonely.
I battle to keep the frigid air from freezing my heart, and overwhelming my sense of survival
I try breathing exercises, meditation, and journaling. They prove to be short-lived distractions. What to do what to do.
I move my hand to the back of my furry friend and try to absorb her positive innocent energy.￼
I will keep trying. I will remember to eat, and I will try to move more. Although I don’t know why I bother. Maybe I’m not supposed to know why, I’m just supposed to try.